For the last few years, I have worked on developing an awareness of what I am sensing and feeling at various times and during various activities. That may sound like something basic and simple but for me, and for what I've heard from others, it isn't always so. Let me give you an example.
When I consult, I love every part of the process except writing the wrap-up or exit report. I put it off and put it off a little longer. Finally, I had to ask myself, "Why do I dislike this so? What is it that is so unpleasant?" My conclusion: After I've left a company, I move on to other tasks. I am so particular about the wrap-up, that I procrastinate, believing in my mind that I don't have enough time to do the report well.
What was the answer? I now generate the report during my visit and try to have it done before I depart. The answer was born out of the awareness that something simple was de-energizing me and causing me to avoid a critical business activity. Much personal growth and productivity are borne out of being aware of what we are feeling and sensing at any given point in time.
I had a man tell me the other day, "I was leaving the office today and I felt relieved. I started this business, I love this business, but today I recognized that I was glad to leave and I further realized that I have been feeling this for some time." As we talked, he began to recognize that perhaps it was time for a change and we discussed how that could happen in the next few years.
When I think of awareness, I can't help but think of the time that the woman who touched Jesus and was completely and immediately healed. We are told:
At once Jesus realized that power had gone out from him. He turned around in the crowd and asked, "Who touched my clothes?" "You see the people crowding against you," his disciples answered, "and yet you can ask, 'Who touched me?'" (Mark 5:30-31).
Even though many people were pressing against Jesus, He had such a level of awareness that He knew that someone had touched Him in a unique way.
I want that kind of awareness. I want to know what I am feeling and want to be aware of others when they "touch" me. So what are you "feeling" today? Fear? Insecurity? Fatigue? Boredom? Whatever it is, it is important that you recognize it for what it is. Then isolate that feeling and examine it. Why is this happening to you? What message is it communicating?
If you will face this, that message can be a key to your ongoing growth and development relationally, spiritually and professionally. Don't be so immersed in the busy-ness of your life that you don't feel and acknowledge the little things that bother or touch you. Walk in awareness and, as you do, you'll walk in a new sense of freedom and confidence. This process has worked for me and I know it will pay dividends for you as well.
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